Wednesday
I haven't slept well for some nights. I'm tired and the 'brain-fog' is more in evidence because of it. Too many nightmares, when I do close my eyes. The time is passing slowly as I wait for the tests to be done. Another 3 weeks. I have had a result about physical exercise being re-introduced and I know it is a tremendous help for me, from past experience. I'll be under supervision and receiving 'guided exercise' from the professionals. Managing to do something which releases endorphins, is marvelous and a real boon to people with my condition. So I'm slip-sliding into positive gearing, mentally. Some discussion last week about S.A.D Lamps. Recommended by a nutritian expert on my Healthy Eating Course. I'll try anything to help me. So there'll be time spent on trawling the net for suppliers and reviews.I can't stand being pestered by people these days. It's too much of an effort when struggling to cope with myself. It's like trying to cross a crocodile infested river and some pillock comes along and wants me to count the bloody crocodiles while I'm there! I'm tired. Is all. Nuff said.
I'll stop.
posted by john @ 10:30 pm
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I received a message from someone who quite understandably, believed was covering all and sundry about me feeling pestered. Rest assured, those who read this blog are not in the loop which contains the pesterers. This blog is open by way of you being given the http to it, by me. Those who get up me nose ain't aware of this blog.
I have had 3 nights of undisturbed sleep. I have felt better than i have for weeks. How? I have slept in a slightly raised position. My head and neck being supported by three pillows which keep my head raised in a slightly slumped position. A bit like reading in bed and having slid down the headboard a bit. This has kept my airways open because my air-passage has not been laying horizontally. The trick is to keep my lower spine horizontal though. I've struck a fine balance between spine and airways, and managed to avoid the Sleep Apnoea. However, the pain in my spine has been a 'little aggravated' as a result.
I have been able to sleep without jerking my head up to gasp for air all night. I've not had dreams about being choked or smothered either. These happen in my mind as my lungs fight for air. So a good three nights. I'm looking forward to another night's sleep.
Tomorrow, I go for assessment and examination at the Hospital's Physical Awareness Gymnasium. I've been a patient there previously and I know it will be of great help to me.
This is part of one of the two paths that I had been hoping to be sent on by the doctors. Bipolar treatment is to be another part of this particular path.
Only 2 weeks until I go in to hospital for Sleep Apnoea testing through an overnight stay. Lots of wires and sensors, infra-red camera, microphones etc. I don't envision it being difficult to fall asleep with that lot attached to me.
"Small moves Ellie, small moves," said Mr Arroway. I'm taking everything slowly now and putting myself in the hands of the scientists, their equipment and medicines.
Too many typing errors to write this posting means I'm more tired than I thought. I'll stop here.
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